An open letter to a lost lover from a broken girl
I am sorry you had to see me this way
In all the years in all the scenarios I never imagined it would be like this
I am ashamed that I am not the stunner you had in mind
I am ashamed that my scars are so evident
I never intended for you to see me like this.
I never intended for you to see me.
You will always be that guy
the one I want to have
I hoped you could look past it all.
Past the years
that hang like tattered caution tape around my body.
I hoped you could see through the shell to the core of me.
Maybe you did, and it wasn’t enough.
I guess I will never know because I am too shattered to ask.
Knowing might help
scatter me in the wind.
Regardless, in ignorance, I will continue to miss you.
Soon the keenness of your renewed absence will fade
and you will return to being a fond memory.
I still love you